My Short Story by Luna Magika

I come from the usual family, hard working, married parents, had a mortgage with wider family support in the 80's. I was a child that had a vivid imagination and was pretty much a loner at school, but that wasn't anything out of the ordinary for me, given my life path. My sister was the opposite, she was popular and loud! But sure enough things did happen and my family split up when I was a child. 

My sister an I was put on the "At Risk" register in the early 90's and to my knowledge things were a mess as my mother had another man in her life who was a schedule one offender, and my father was miles away traumatised by the break up. Over the course of the 90's I was traumatised by my mother who didn't like my dad for admitting he may be gay because of his childhood sexual abuse as he was admitting to his truth in his sobriety, which she couldn't handle and turned into a mess, which reflected on my sister and myself. Not only that, we had the threat of SS taking us away. There was no help for her at the time or us as kids. She was left alone vulnerable to the perverts! 

I failed in school, my sister struggled although she had a few friends for support. Again no support other than threats of being taken. School didn't help, they just allowed me to be absent, always in sick bay, or in the computer room in the later years of the 90's. Fearing that if I spoke about how I felt I would be taken by the SS. 

I was told at the age of 10 what sex was, along with my sister who is 18 months younger than me, by Steve Bunce a Social worker, where he came round to our home and sat us down without my mum there, which was scary enough! Let alone with what he was going to tell us. How a man and a woman have sex and that adults may want to do that to children, then he left. I wasn't ready, I was horrified and was left with that mature knowledge at such a young age as a sensitive child too. By the time I got to 13 I was sexually active, home was a mess I left home at 15 and ended up pregnant by 16. Being that young and in the system I was marked. Still no emotional help, no support in all of that, nothing, but threats to take my child because of the boyfriend being volatile, judgement and with being passed around from social worker to social worker, I was just a number to them. But one social worker I had, left because she knew what should be done rather than what she was told to do, her name is Andrea Lemon. By 17 I was on heroin because my son's dad bullied me down into it. I didn't know at the time of meeting him when getting to know him when we first met when I was 14, this was something that came out later after my son was born. I lost everything and after a void of pain I fell into my daughters ( my second child ) dad's arms by 21, being an absolute drunk and a mess lost in it all. 

I was at rock  bottom ( again! ) and I could not believe it! Trapped in the pain of the first carried into the second, I couldn't take to being a complete wreck forever, I decided to use Art and Spirituality as a tool for Healing. Being that I have  since very young always been Deeply Sensitive to the "Subtleties of Life" and already well on my way at starting my inner journey to God, Life , The Universe,  The Unicorns and everything else. I got clean pretty quickly and battled with both SS and her fathers mental health because he broke down with his psychosis, I fought hard and won with not just the battle in court for custody, but social services were on my side with it to the point they left me alone and happy to go and be a mother to my daughter, for some years, there was for a time some mental health support from the NHS with some counselling. However, I was told that "it was impossible" to be a single mum alone! And not just by one professional, my Dr, Social Workers, some members at the council. You can't have an over-night operation, or an appointment if its too far away from school pick up, you cant even do the Christmas shopping in secret! None the less I did it but fragile and vulnerable I was alone with my insecurities'. Some years later  ( seven I remember ) , I met my third child's (my second son) dad and all hell broke lose again with the aggressive behaviour and heroin addiction! SS moved straight in, new social workers failing to recognise that I am capable as in my previous abilities with my daughter, no help or support for me being a vulnerable lone adult/parent, who is trying to become just a better human, now with the added evil aunty who has taken my son for herself. With Legal Aid Exceeded, Abused again by the father, his aunty and the SS I had suffered yet another loss of all three of my babies gone, but still I got back up and is clean and is well recovering with three and a half years! Still doing what I love to do but now I wanted to share this for you. As I have tended to wangle through Life I thought It be apt' to Call My store WANGLES  where I share my Gifts of Wisdom, Compassion with a Luna Glow! With every tear of pain I have and will continually shed, I will also shed a tear of passion in all my artwork. I now have a growing and loving, all be it, fragile relationship with my eldest Son, who is now 20 and sadly meeting his early fate by going through a similar experience and I have a Grandchild in the care system. See the industry? This has to STOP. 

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No one is perfect I have taken my responsibilities and I hold them fully, however....

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I thought I was alone, Like really alone! But there are more families and parents like me out there, no matter what, still trying even though SS say NO, Lie and steal your children because you were a little down or you asked for support or maybe you were just alone with no family support, lost with no where to go or know who to talk to for help, not this hindrance? Where SS is to blame on a lot of things that goes unnoticed because of the complexities, the red tape and gagging clauses.  A lot of these meetings and courts are acting Illegally, not under oath and keeping up to targets given by "they who fund them" so really who is wrong here? We were never given the chance as children and this is just my basic story, my heart goes out to all of you going through similar or worse! Stay Strong, your children need you!

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I have organised some groups here at Wangles so we can get together, share our story with each other and try and come up with the solution ourselves and take SS to court for their crimes! We must stop this from continuing into the future of our children. The future must be safe, happy and family orientated! Families should be kept together and we must Keep Innocence Alive!

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Please come and support us here at Wangels and thank you for being part of our children's future.

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Blessings to you, Luna Magika.